God met me at a dumpster. Yes, a dumpster. On the last day of 2017 I was running catering at a church conference. In the final hours, I found myself in a back room all alone chucking hundreds of empty lunch boxes into a dumpster. Something happened to me there. Let me back up for just a moment….
All my life I "measured" my way to God: I wanted to be more, do more, earn His love. When I was saved I thought this deception fully escaped my heart. But our Enemy is crafty—it says in God’s Word even he knows the truth, but denies it.
The Enemy disguises and deceives you just enough to derail you from the straight and narrow path where God is growing you and making you more like Jesus.
Even after walking with Jesus for 5 years, I battled surrender, trust, & believing He was enough. Before this moment at the dumpster I was in bondage, and I didn’t even know it. In 2017 I struggled through “striving.” What was I striving towards? To be seen & known & approved by others. I wanted to be recognized for what I was doing. Striving left me stiff-necked, puffed up with pride, hard-hearted, and I didn’t even know it.
While striving I failed to remember it was God who saved me, God who delivered me, and God who was in charge. I focused on the Kingdom of Self – not on the Kingdom of God.
I desperately needed to be content in my Creator, to be satisfied in Him and Him alone.
Now back to the dumpster….
In that moment God spoke to me in my heart – He said “I see you, my daughter, in this moment, & I am pleased.”
In that moment I experienced true contentment. I experienced God’s nearness. As I received the gift of being known and seen by my Father in heaven, I was overcome with joy. He was enough. Contentment is a powerful weapon against the enemy!
Gratitude becomes our “war cry” when there is nowhere else we’d rather be than with Jesus and there’s nothing else we’d rather have but Jesus.
Psalm 63: 3-5 says:
Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you.
Nothing this world offers will satisfy you. No amount of applause. No amount of Instagram followers. No job promotion. Not even your family or spouse or children. Just Jesus Himself. Today I pray you experience contentment in Christ, knowing He is enough. Rest in that Truth.